Friday, April 25, 2008

Poem - Beri Aku 12 Ros Merah

Ku tatap cermin, ada bayang mu.
Ku ulurkan tangan, meraih mu.
Jangan Cinta ada di dunia.
Jika kita terpisah benua.

Rabu ini begitu biru,
Tiada malam mengganti kelam.
Kalau Cinta ada di dunia,
Mengapa kita terpisah benua.

Kalau Rabu selalu biru,
Esok malam tak akan kelam.
Ada tak ada Cinta di dunia,
Kita berdiri di dua benua.

Musim semi menyapa bumi.
Ku tatap cermin ku bersihkan hati.
Ros merah, mekar bersemi.
Aku melangkah dengan pasti.
Menggoda Cinta mengubur Mimpi.

ps: poem ini ditulis atas permintaan dari seorang teman. semoga disukai, dan berguna 'tuk kamu dan siapa saja yang membacanya.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Difference

I will bring another topic. Of course all is based on my point of view. Why do I keep saying "from my point of view"? This question has a relation with the topic I want to discuss now.

Before I'm now, I was an egoist, arrogant person. I was subjective, a stubborn. Hypocrite! Why did I say that? Do you ever... erm, I think most of the people is like that, they just don't realize it. Yes, you are one of them.

I think I'm the right man, the good man. I use logic. All my words are based on strong argument. I like to debate. I don't like something based on trust. Because It has no prove. People that trust something blindly, without even analyze it, or re think about it, is people that need an object. An object to hope, to ask, to beg, to blame, to share. It is because they are weak.

I was full of hate. I hate people that are weak, stupid. I couldn't stand with people that so... opposite to me. I would say that they are stubborn, because they didn't agree with me. I was even debating with my mom.

I don't want other people know my weakness! I will show that I'm strong. If you read my previous articles, I think you think I'm strong too. Do you want to know the real? The fact? The real and the fact is, I wrote those in a moment, a piece of moment in my life. Do you know the rest of the time? No? Ok! Then, I will tell you. The rest is not always like that. Stress, frustration, anger, hatred, emotion, and other junk... oops, it's not junk at all. Even those rubbish must be appreciated. Color of life.

I appreciate the differentiation. I realize we are all on the same level. Now I can appreciate a person that choose to be a beggar.

PS: for the higher level, I'm sorry, my articles still around these low level discussion.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

I Believe There is Love

Like the title, of course I believe, and I'm sure everyone is. But if you think deeper, I'm sure you will arrive at the question, is there an everlasting love. Why do we need an everlasting one? This question is new to me. But I believe when love is gone, both side will be hurt, or, at least one of the two will get suffered.

Once I gone out with a girl that I must admit I didn't love. Well, I don't want to explain the reason. Sometimes I doubt if I can use this word, Love. Because I think I don't understand what is that. In other occasion, my other x: "Do you really love me?". Me: "No.". Ok, then we broke. Now I think I should explain why that answer got out from my mouth. This is not my defense, but a point of view of mine, I don't think I can love her really when I don't even know how or what the real love is. It was tragic.

There is funny story, I always told my girls, that I don't need to say it every time. "I love you." I told them, love is not only from mouth, of what we said. If I say "I love you so much" doesn't mean I really love you so much. Because I or other people can only lie. Then rather than asking those question "Do you love me?", you'd better conclude yourself if I love you from what I had done. Or, I prefer action than talk.

Whats the funny part? If I ask my x, most of them said that I was too cool to show my feeling in action. And whats that mean? I refuse to keep saying those word, and I didn't even show it in my action. That makes them think or doubt even, if I ever really loved them.

Well, now I'd learned. They need both talk and action.

Sometimes I like to wandering, is there really a couple that love each other till old and die, moreover, in this day, I doubt more.

I had loved, and been loved. I saw a pattern. It is sweet in the beginning. Bored in the middle. You can decide your ending. But after those many times, I still have a little hope, that there is indeed an everlasting love. Ok. I don't ask you to agree or oppose. Because I know, you don't know yourself. Even a 60 years old human can only give his/her opinion base on his/her own life experience. And thanks, but I know, everybody have their own story.

If there is really a true love in this world, I want to give it a try. Yeah lol, of course, not only me, everybody want it. Ok, not everyone, but most of the human being. There is always a mutant. Now I'm trying to find, or at least I hope there is. Because I think if I live as human only to satisfy other people, seem useless. If I get married only to satisfy my parent, I'd better not. If in the end, I couldn't find someone I love, I'd better not to get married. I will let other people think that I'm weird. I will conclude they are only a group of people that never think further, or a group of people that too care for other opinion, or scared of being the topic of gossip.

But sometimes I doubt about how long I can stay like this. I mean think like this, or in other word, strong like this. Will I feel lonely when I'm older because I don't have another person to live with, or to share, or to defend, to care, to love, love, to defend, to die for?

My friend told me to open my heart. Ehm.. how? My nephew just opened his heart in the surgery. Thanks to everybody that pray for him. Now he is ok.

I follow the trend. The trend is, people like to read about love. I provide them.